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Week Of 3-11-19

Focus this week: Camp NaNoWriMo and Research Questions

This week I split my time into two separate projects I was working on.

The first half of the week was occupied with my research essay. I took my list of questions and sub-questions that I had developed for my research topic (Gender Roles Through the Ages). Using google scholar, I was able to find around fifteen sources to read through and search for things that would relate to my essay.

I knew when picking this topic, I wanted to focus on how gender roles were affecting the people and the outside world with the way these roles seemed to work out in society. That required me to do a little more searching for some of the topics. It also meant that a lot of my research was creating empty links between quote to topic.

I spent a lot of time trying to chunk quotes to the topics I wanted to break into. It was a lot of color-coded notes and topic revision. I have yet to start the essay and instead I have been focusing on finding topics and quotes to back myself up before even going. I’m working in the prewriting stage of the essay. Actually, I seem to be barely in the prewriting stage. I’ve just been trying to find quotes to work with.

PDF Files for Research Paper

The second half of my week was the focus on Camp NaNoWriMo. I’ve gathered a few friends to build a cabin and work together to complete Camp NaNoWriMo. I spent a lot of time re-designing a very old idea I had. I’ve always wanted to do something dystopian but explore the work of a monarchy.

I found use of a website called Realtime Board/Miro ( https://realtimeboard.com/ ). It was an endless whiteboard that I’ve been story building on. It really helps me with my messy note writing habits. I also took an old sketchbook that I found lying around and used that to create the character trees in an easier page that will also be within my reach during this project.

I’ve been getting overly excited about the project and I found something I was really looking forward too. I was really worried that I wouldn’t find something that I could work through. This project was one that I was looking forward too after revising and working through it. I also have been trying to break down the project into new characters and break them away from those I created in The Underground.

Realtime Board Work

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Deconstructing Danny

For many other writers, I feel like there would be a similar feeling of favoritism among your characters. For me, that was no different.

As a reader, I always found myself rooting for the underdog. I was rooting for the background character and listening to obscure fan-made ideas about them.

Examples of my underdog favorites: Remus Lupin (Harry Potter), Adam Parrish (The Raven Cycle), Nicky Hemmick (All for the Game), Rudy Steiner (The Book Thief), Ed Kennedy (I am the Messenger), and Marlee Tames (The Selection).

Daniel Hansen was no different. He was created to be the underdog. He was created to be less interesting. The only difference now was that I was not the reader, I was the writer. I was showing blatant favoritism to a character who wasn’t even supposed to see the pages of my book.

Danny Hansen was one of my last characters created for my book, The Underground, and one of my favorite characters to explore. He came about through a project and unlikely events that I had experienced at the time.

Danny limps closer, examining the stranger with disdain. Danny wears a ripped sweatshirt, drops of his own blood evident on the grey collar. His jeans are ripped at the knee from crawling out of an alleyway. Florence wears black suit pants with a pressed navy blue top. Everything on Florence is very pristine and clean cut.

introduction from movie script project

Danny had not actually been made for the book. He had been created from another project for my prior independent study class. I was instructed to explore genres and, ultimately, mimic one of the genres I explored. I ended up creating him for a movie script project and just fell in love with him as a character.

He was created to add interesting backstory for Florence. He was ultimately created to be a filler. He was supposed to bridge the gap between the societal divide of characters. He was created only to bring the main character to her goals. He was the stepping stone in a much larger journey.

Daniel had spiraled from just a small character to becoming one of my main characters. Ultimately, his introduction added around 20,000 words to a pretty small project. He waltzed into my book and grew as a huge character. His backstory became a point of self-inflection and helped me through my own personal exploration.

Daniel Hansen was a paper thin boy with fragile emotions. For so many years he had been mocked and called a girl for allowing himself to feel something other than the toxic masculinity that had been engraved into his head from all the boys at school.

page 34; The Underground by A.D Sugarbaker

Danny became one of my own favorites throughout the book. He was intended to be created that way. He was a tragedy and an example of walking irony. Danny was created to show the classist divide in the society of The United States during the time of the novel.

He was a taste of fresh air after writing from the eyes of my well-off characters. Danny came from tragedy. He was built from the ground up of nothing. He was also walking irony through the whole book. For those who read the novel, they’d understand why.

Character Board created for Danny

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Week Of 3-4-19

Focus this week: Finding Research Topics

This week I focused on my research paper and the work that has come along with finding a topic. On Tuesday, I spent the hour researching multiple topics.

At the beginning of the project, I had seven separate topics about multiple different events. There was no real path that I was following for the topic. Topics ranged from the psychology of criminal life to topics about certain medical issues.

Throughout the week, I spent time dwindling down topics and working through the questions and sub-questions about separate topics. I focused on what I knew about topics, what I wanted to know, and what I had no clue on while I was working through topics.

During the time I focused on creating a chart to help organize my thoughts. Ultimately I was really struggling to pick my topic for the research paper I was going to be pursuing. Over the past few days I debated back and forth with the many different ideas that were coming from the topics I was exploring.

Ultimately I picked Gender Roles through the Years since I wanted to focus on something that I felt pretty strongly about. Since I’ve always been interested in the way gender roles affect people-both children and adults- I felt like this was the right choice for my essay.

I know a lot about how gender roles have changed from the stereotypical ideals that once plagued the times. I wanted to explore more. I wanted to know the how and the why. I want to know what times changed those. Were these roles changed because of economics? Time period? Medical situations? What changed the roles? Was it people? Was it just mentality?

I feel the exploration in a research essay would help me change my ideas of the way I think of gender roles. I feel like it would be a break outside of just the way the world is now. It will be an exploration of what came of what and how things came to be in the world we know it now.

I was left with one big question after going through my exploration; How has the idea of gender roles changed from the past?

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Week 2-19-19

Focus this week: Embedding quotes in a research paper

This week I trekked through the various pages of embedding quote and went through the selection of notes. Although this seemed to be something so repetitive and something that I thought I knew how to do, I learned a few different methods of placing quotes into my future research paper.

Methods such as sandwiching, setting off quotes, introducing with the use of colons, and building in quotes were new methods I tried out during the week. These were methods I had heard about (maybe not by name) and had seen multiple times in papers.

On top of learning these methods, I also learned how to actually use brackets and an ellipsis in writing. Both of these options were something I had seen so many times before but never quite knew how to use them myself. Through the help of the guidelines on the papers, I was able to see and understand how and why they should be used. It helped open my eyes to why a writer would use something like brackets or use an ellipsis.

Through many of the in-class activities where I was pulling either my own quotes or using the ones provided, I was able to see how to execute a process like putting quotes in so they weren’t floating.

This week of embedding quotes helped me create an idea in my head of how to put quotes logically into a research paper, something I hadn’t considered before. I used to just drop them into the random placement of a paragraph to just hit a word count or length in a page. After some practice and close note taking, I was able to work through the methods of embedding quotes without just dropping them and leaving them floating.

Week of 2-19-19 work: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1IlV0SvSIgm7GgHVoUtcsLq319c9_r3jy65nlg6UTnAU/edit

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Publishing at 17

If you asked me a year ago what I planned to do when I got to senior year, I would have responded that I didn’t know.  I would have also responded with the stereotypical; go to class, get good grades, graduated on time. I had started writing again for fun with the help of a school club. But if you would have asked me what I wanted to do with my writing, I never would have known.

A year ago I did not plan on anyone reading my writing.

At age seventeen, I have worked through the long and grueling publishing process. My book started as a NaNoWriMo project that was never supposed to see the light of day. I planned to write my own book for my own enjoyment. This year I’ve branched away from that. I took my book, molded it and published it.

Now, I’m seventeen years old. I am no expert in writing or editing. I was no expert when I started and I am no expert after doing that. I write for my own enjoyment. Do I think I’m good? That’s an open-ended question. I leave the idea of “good writing” up to the reader exploring it.
The editing/revisions were hard. I won’t sugarcoat that for the weary writer. I knew they were hard. I faced a challenge of revising. To pull apart your own writing and destroy the world you had created was difficult. Nobody could have prepared me for that. Its facing characters who you loved and cutting them because you realize they aren’t too beneficial to a story. The work I had to do was like cleaning out the junk drawer. You pick apart sentences and words and wonder, “Do I need this? Will I need this later?” over and over again. You constantly question every choice you made with uncertainty.

I loved the writing process. I loved world building with new characters. I loved reflecting my own ideas and some things I didn’t believe in my book. I realized that you don’t always believe everything you write. I realized, sometimes, twisting the situation into your own words builds the story. I realized that everything I put into my book didn’t have to be fact but instead could be something you twisted around for your own benefit as a writer because guess what; writing is hard and you cannot be expected to make everything up as you go. Character building was the same way. Build what you want to see; not what you do see.

At seventeen, publishing has been monumental. I’ve learned to lean on my support team of a club at school and my friends that were outside of school. I’ve built support around me that some writers may have lacked. I have learned so much through this process. I’ve watched each thing I built spiral into something else. It has helped me work through the process day after day. I’ve finally published my book, The Underground. I’ve watched it spiral with my friends and family. People have looked at me at seventeen and all that I’ve tried to do.

I claimed my win on NaNoWriMo. I’ve claimed my personal win with publishing a book.

So if you asked me a year ago, where I’d be I wouldn’t have thought this. Working as a senior in high school and publishing a book has been so monumental. I never expected this.

I explored different writing methods before finding a medium that fit me. There were instances where my focus was on essays. I had days where my focus lingered on poetry. Short stories danced in my visions. Sometimes nothing felt right. It worried me to find a moment where I found a medium I could depend on. Finding a novel was a moment that felt like a saving grace.

To the writer scared to take that leap, do it. I encourage anyone who has a deep passion for writing to just do it. Throw yourself into the mess and don’t look back. Some days will suck with writers. Some days will feel like you just can’t stop writing. I recommend to anyone weary to start; just start and don’t look back.


Cover of The Underground by A.D Sugarbaker
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Independent Study Reflection

Participating in Peer to Peer English as an independent study has really helped me grow as a writer and student. Through the months I have participated in this class, I have moved to write at such lengths that I never thought possible. This class has pushed me to finish a full-length novel. The novel has sprung from certain in-class assignments, such as a movie script genre exploration. The Underground, a novel I have been working on since before this class, has sprung in my genre studies in this class.

I have worked with a genre exploration that I had done at the beginning of the semester. When I created this project for the class that was based on creating a movie script, it really helped me make my novel feel all the more authentic. The authenticity of my book came from working through a movie based script and seeing a little more realistically characters would have worked out together. When writing a book, I did not actually consider the way humans worked in the way they spoke or the way they acted. But when writing the movie script, I thought a little more about the way people spoke or acted. I tried to imagine if this were an actual scene, how would this play out? Would it be as interesting in my mind on paper? And would this idea play out on paper in a screenplay?

Through the processes in this class, I’ve also made plenty of mistakes. In my writing process and as a student, I’ve made simple mistakes. There have been times where the creativity didn’t flow and I spent more time staring at a blank page instead of forcing a little more of the process. In this class, when NaNoWriMo came along and I turned to focus on my book, I had some days where instead of writing, I was more occupied with other things that kept me in a writing slump. I had days where I didn’t battle so much with the writing process but instead let it slip away from me. If I had the chance to fix that, I’d battle a little more with the writing process just to learn better of it.

I’ve gained a lot through having this time. I have grown as a writer and a student. This class has opened a lot of options for me too. During this time I was able to take a break and work through some things that I would not have time for. I was able to grow as a writer in this hour a day. When writing outside of school, there was always a struggle to find the time. And even when finding the time, there were moments of writing on a phone and having little to no focus. With this class, I had doors open for me to write. No longer did I have writing time in the small moments I could fit it, between classes or on the drive places on my phone, I had a moment to sit down and have my own sacred writing time. I was able to work through and reach limits I never thought possible. I was able to open a door of publishing, writing, and expanding.

When reading articles at the beginning of the semester, I was able to see how other people may offer up options to explore different genres. Genre and the exploration of the many types of genres have opened up the way I write. Here I can see different points with other genres and how it reflects in my writing. The writing that has been portrayed through other genres has reflected on me in a way that molds my writing. I was able to see points where short bursts of words work and become powerful. I was able to look at the difference between short stories and novels. I was able to create a mindset of open writing that didn’t bind me down to one set of rules of writing.

The mindset of a writer has drastically changed. Having a teacher who was able to help build my writing into something new was incredibly helpful. Working as an independent study has helped with my work in that aspect. I was able to get the one on one help that was necessary to build my own novel. It was helpful for me to have that chance. Without the chance of being in this class, I would have lost the ability to publish and even finish my book. This independent study has really opened up my eyes to the steps of writing through trial and error.

Along with growing as a writer, I’ve grown as a student in this independent study. I’ve gained the ability to work through problem-solving on my own and approach unknown materials with an open mindset. The work I’ve done has been mostly independent and approached differently than the usual work that is done in a class full of other students. With other students, I would have not gotten that one on one help that would have been used in a standard classroom. Working as an independent study in this setting has helped me grow through many challenges that may have been faced in the classroom. I can take skills that I learned in these aspects and pick them up to put in different settings. The writing skills in separate genres can be lifted and placed in another setting. The work in a genre study based class could be lifted and placed in separate settings like an English classroom.

Writing and editing a novel turned out to be some of the skills I was able to replicate in my novel. The time I had to learn on writing and editing has helped in other classes. While editing a book, I have earned some editing skills that could relate to the process of essay writing. The skills I’ve worked on with writing could relate to writing things such as articles or essays in another class. Through this class and the processes I’ve learned, I can turn many skills into skills for something else.

Working as an independent study has not only been beneficial for now but can be beneficial to me in the future. The exploration of genre and what genre means has changed me as a writer, reader, and student. Work that I have done in this class can be picked up and mimicked in other classes that I come across.